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Sky is Falling DownThe sky seems to be falling over me
The ground feels like it's
Being pulled from under my feet
I've never felt so lost before
Or felt this alone as I walk a crowded street
I wonder what's happening to me
Why does my heartbeat
Feel so weak
Why do I feel so empty inside
Will I ever feel complete
I'm in pain again
Maybe its exactly what I need
Stop the numbness
Get the wrist starting to bleed
And I guess it'll be another night
Where I drink, cry and beg to god
To free me of the pain
Because I'm tired of wearing this facade
I'll drink and cut myself
Which is really kind of odd
How can this help me feel relief
Like me, Happiness is just a fraud
All night I'll pray to god
To help me take away the pain
On my knees with my hands up to the sky
As blood is squirting out my veins
Though I know it deep inside
That my efforts are in vain
I can bleed myself dry tonight
Freedom is not that easy to obtain
Losing HeavenWhat happened to the heaven in which I used to believe
What happened to..that happiness...I prayed never to leave
It seem that since you stopped smiling my way..all I can ever perceive
Is grief....it deceives...And I just get no relief
And it feels like this happiness is going on a steady decline
Instead of heaven I'm going to hell...since you're no longer mine
And your smile that would shine...can no longer be my lifeline
Even if it's divine..and brings chills down my spine..
If it belongs to someone else..it wont make me feel fine
I lost my opportunity..now your smile belongs to someone else
And every time I see you with him I keep getting angry at myself
I destroyed my heaven...and I'm now stuck in one of hell's ..many cells
All because every time I tried to say I loved you...I always stumbled on the "L"s
Leaving the Nest(Daughter)
Daddy....this is so hard for me to say
feeling darkness within long days...
My tiny hands tremble...
thinking how to assemble...
these words without being afraid.
For the longest time I've been this empty shell.
Been dealing with my personal hell...
Tried finding another man's love....
given up on the game.
Now you've found another.....
When you look at her what do you see?
Because looking for too long....
in the end you're losing me
Please give me your little hand
I know right now this is hard to understand
Let me wipe the tear from off your cheek
I know right now you feel so weak
Maybe things are going by too fast
hoping mamma will come back
for things to be just like in the past
but she's not coming back
we both need to move on
but don't think your place in my heart
could possibly be gone
no matter what direction the world decides to whirl
You will always be my baby
My little girl
Daddy...please....forgive me if I decide to leave..
Hating to Love youLife goes by
Its nearly the end of October
Eleven months since you left me
And I still can't seem to keep sober
Drink after drink
Living off of intoxication
Can't mend this broken heart
But its the best medication
Holding on to the past
Feels like I'm stuck in one place
Still being haunted by your voice
And that last look on your face
I'm starting to hate
Everything I once loved about you
Like the thickness of your lips
And how your eyes would shine blue
The sound of your voice
The accent when you'd pronounce my name
What I really hate
Is that no one can pronounce it the same
I hate that I love you
And can't seem to forget you
I hate that I'm broken
And can't seem to get through
I hate that I lost you
I hate you're not here
That every day I'm lonely
And living with fear
But I no longer love you!
Or so I would love to say
But I will always love you
Just hopefully not always like today
Lost at SeaWhy do I....hear your voice in every song.
Every lyric lies...and tells me that we Belong
But the songs don't notice that you're gone
Or notice this depression that I'm on
Its like... subliminally..every song talks to Me
And in them all I see....is how we're meant to be
Yeah...I know you don't agree...
but let me prove to you....this love wasn't lost at sea
So don't tell me that its dead....that it only lives inside my head
With every tear that we have shed..saying you rather be alone instead
this path that we have led....without you ..its only dread
Listen to the words that I have said.....don't leave me alone in this huge Bed
YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection
No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision
It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass
Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss
We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much
Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why did I have to catch you
Sleeping with somebody else
Giving him that smile
Lipstick painting your lips red
Did you forget all about us
As you slid into his bed?
Yesterday is long gone
Today is filled with much remorse
I tried to numb the pain with liquor
But it seemed to only make it worse
Today is filled with memories
That I wish I could forget
Every second spent togethe
Angel's CryNo power through the house
at night sleeping on the floor
Moved the furniture against the walls
Sofa is blocking the front door
We're all sleeping in the same room
trying to keep each other warm
We're fearing for our life
like if we're in the middle of a storm
For two weeks we lived like this
after we started living on our own
When we finally escaped our father
And mother took the burden all alone
She always stood so strong
Even though we barely moved along
Acting like nothing in the world is wrong
trying to give us some place we felt that we belonged
Then one night I walked into her room
I could smell in the air she had sprayed some of His perfume
Her tears were flowing
I could see depression was starting to consume
For us she'd been a strong mother
But she was still a wife that lost her groom
It was the first time I saw her cry
And the first time I wished that He'd just die
It was the first time I looked up to the sky
and asked god to help my mother get us by
My Angel cried
5:20i went to the forest
to purify my lungs
then i saw the thick
three letter scar
i left in a slender
birch, and wondered how
i could let you poison
another living thing.
moths aren't afraid of pins
till they're stuck to a piece of styrofoam.
hey newton, gravity's flawedi.
starting anew from the flutter
and the sputter of lungs.
a vacant sea filled with feathers
and tumultuous clatter,
ribs in a treacherous pattern
resembling exiting rungs.
i want to wrestle the angels,
your tendency is the ladder.
involved with full indiscretion,
trading lazy for lace.
unspool the curse of the long-
limbs in a languorous flexion
i like the stab of the ankles,
you need the curves intersected.
opting to cull my extents
with trans-dimensional vigor.
spent my dysphoric corrections
on reconnecting lax ends.
lips in a spurious accent
feign a passionate rigor.
i tie myself to the anchor,
you extricate and ascend.
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