If a star would fall down,
for everytime I think of you,
the sky would drown,
the love would be through.
Seen the warning sign?
Walk down the line.
HardHard to express this feeling inside. Hard to realise that all has died. No roots remain, nothing left to gain. Even after this time, words come hard out of my mouth. When everybody is asking all the time. What else but to tell the truth. The truth is hard, yet it is the truth. Everyone sees his own truth. What he likes to believe. I like to believe I have done all that I could and it is time to move on. Thus far, everything else has been going really well. All that I work on comes to light, works well. The only thing, there is only one thing that is missing. Only one person you might say. This may seem a little too personal, yet it is just writing. I like to write my thoughts sometimes. So only one thing that has been taken away from me. The most important thing there is. There is no chance to get it back, no point in wishing things were different. Yet that is what I am like. I like to wonder, sometimes too often. Had I done something differently, would it be different? Would I still b
Leaving the Nest(Daughter)
Daddy....this is so hard for me to say
feeling darkness within long days...
My tiny hands tremble...
thinking how to assemble...
these words without being afraid.
For the longest time I've been this empty shell.
Been dealing with my personal hell...
Tried finding another man's love....
given up on the game.
Now you've found another.....
When you look at her what do you see?
Because looking for too long....
in the end you're losing me
Please give me your little hand
I know right now this is hard to understand
Let me wipe the tear from off your cheek
I know right now you feel so weak
Maybe things are going by too fast
hoping mamma will come back
for things to be just like in the past
but she's not coming back
we both need to move on
but don't think your place in my heart
could possibly be gone
no matter what direction the world decides to whirl
You will always be my baby
My little girl
Daddy...please....forgive me if I decide to leave..
Losing HeavenWhat happened to the heaven in which I used to believe
What happened to..that happiness...I prayed never to leave
It seem that since you stopped smiling my way..all I can ever perceive
Is grief....it deceives...And I just get no relief
And it feels like this happiness is going on a steady decline
Instead of heaven I'm going to hell...since you're no longer mine
And your smile that would shine...can no longer be my lifeline
Even if it's divine..and brings chills down my spine..
If it belongs to someone else..it wont make me feel fine
I lost my opportunity..now your smile belongs to someone else
And every time I see you with him I keep getting angry at myself
I destroyed my heaven...and I'm now stuck in one of hell's ..many cells
All because every time I tried to say I loved you...I always stumbled on the "L"s
YesterdayYesterday, life seemed to be going
In every direction
With many up and downs
Still to be considered perfection
No thoughts of growing up
Only had you in my vision
No responsibility or worries
About making a bad decision
It was so perfect..wasn't it?
Just laying in the grass
Holding on to your hand
Just watching the days pass
Yesterday was magical
There was happiness and bliss
Only breaking silence
When we gasped after a kiss
We never needed words
Everything could be felt with just a touch
The caressing of your skin
Told you I needed you so much
Was yesterday prefect only for me?
Was I enjoying it by myself?
Tell me why did I have to catch you
Sleeping with somebody else
Giving him that smile
Lipstick painting your lips red
Did you forget all about us
As you slid into his bed?
Yesterday is long gone
Today is filled with much remorse
I tried to numb the pain with liquor
But it seemed to only make it worse
Today is filled with memories
That I wish I could forget
Every second spent togethe
Angel's CryNo power through the house
at night sleeping on the floor
Moved the furniture against the walls
Sofa is blocking the front door
We're all sleeping in the same room
trying to keep each other warm
We're fearing for our life
like if we're in the middle of a storm
For two weeks we lived like this
after we started living on our own
When we finally escaped our father
And mother took the burden all alone
She always stood so strong
Even though we barely moved along
Acting like nothing in the world is wrong
trying to give us some place we felt that we belonged
Then one night I walked into her room
I could smell in the air she had sprayed some of His perfume
Her tears were flowing
I could see depression was starting to consume
For us she'd been a strong mother
But she was still a wife that lost her groom
It was the first time I saw her cry
And the first time I wished that He'd just die
It was the first time I looked up to the sky
and asked god to help my mother get us by
My Angel cried
Lost at SeaWhy do I....hear your voice in every song.
Every lyric lies...and tells me that we Belong
But the songs don't notice that you're gone
Or notice this depression that I'm on
Its like... subliminally..every song talks to Me
And in them all I see....is how we're meant to be
Yeah...I know you don't agree...
but let me prove to you....this love wasn't lost at sea
So don't tell me that its dead....that it only lives inside my head
With every tear that we have shed..saying you rather be alone instead
this path that we have led....without you ..its only dread
Listen to the words that I have said.....don't leave me alone in this huge Bed
Nothing like the First LoveThere's nothing like the first love
And those early signs of bliss
Where heartache's still unheard of
And all you lust for is a kiss
When we're still so innocent and pure
Think with love, this world, we cure
But we're just so immature
Gave our hearts away without really being sure
There is nothing like the first love
No one could ever take their place
We may come across pure beauty
Only to find perfection in their face
And the thickness of their lips
Combine to form a perfect smile
Leave our hair standing on its tips
Nothing like the first love
Even if one day we grow apart
We will always keep the memories
And a special place for them inside our hearts
Holding OnI'm here standing by my phone
Just waiting for you to miss me
Hoping you'll come back
For thing to go back to how they used to be
But It seems that up to now
I'm the only one who's missing
I've heard about it all
From moving on to that boy that you've been kissing
Now it seems like so long ago
That your eyes belonged only to me
Those days seem so far gone
More like fairy-tale than memory
Why Can't I let go
Why keep causing myself pain
Was it the way your eyes would always shine
Or the way that you'd pronounce my name
I really don't know
Why I'm sill holding on
But I need something to help me realize
That you're already gone
What I can't understand
Is that even though our story ended long ago
It was so easy to fall in love
But feels impossible to let you go
Memories in the SandToday I told myself..I wouldn't think of you
Wouldn't think of what you do
Or what we've been though
but here I am again...stuck in thoughts of you
I remember how I felt when I first held your hand.
We will forever have our names written in the sand.
We had this plan for forever
Until things got bitter.
But it feels like the waves will end up washing away our names
Like the way forever faded...and only left behind the pain
Sometimes I wish for them to fade away...so I start to pray for Rain
For it to wash with them the feelings...that inside me still remain
The sky begins to darken. Rain begins to fall.
No longer will I have it all. A tear falls
Its cold and wet.
It hits my skin like salt on an open womb burning to the core of my memory of sadness.
But I must confess my past has to come to rest so I can start a new chapter of my life.
I wanna be alright again.
I need to let go. But I want you to know. I will always love you.
I watch them watch youPeople look at you and have no idea
The things you have seen, the hell
It's because you smile through it all
And they want the smile to be for them
I laugh as they try to get your attention
Stumbling over the lie they just invented
Hounding you from your car to the door
You politely smile, and offer warm thanks
They don't see it though how it hurts so
Never knowing their words destroy you
Words meant to flatter, defeat instead
It's not their fault, they don't know you
They don't know your heart is his alone
They don't know how he saved your life
They adore you from where they stand
But the you inside, hates to be adored
I can see it in your sad eyes, the disdain
These are not the men you want to see
And every second he is not here with you
You crumble, you stumble, you lose it